The real me

IMG_0069.jpgOLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA          Processed with VSCOcam with f2 presetHappy New Year you lovely lot! Can you believe we are on day 6 of 2016 already? Well, where do I start? This post is going to be completely upfront and honest…… maybe a little too honest. Well hey, that is who I am, hopefully it will allow you to get to know me a bit better and be able to understand this huge journey I have just embarked on. I know this is already sounding like a generic ‘new year, new year me post’ but I promise you it is no such thing. The timing is just a happy coincidence.

So if you want to read all about my little old life, read on……. Here it is, the brutal truth, about me, from my crazy bright sofa. Processed with VSCOcam with f2 presetProcessed with VSCOcam with f2 presetOver the past few years a lot has happened to me, I’ve had some extreme highs and extreme lows. Getting married, having the most amazing Hen party in Vegas and building a house with my love, being just some of the highlights. I am so lucky to have really supportive friends and family and if you’re reading this, thank you. Thank you for being there to mop up the small lakes that I have created with my waterworks, as the past number of years have been largely filled with anxiety and stress. All of which have been due to that thing, that we do all for the majority of our lives! THE DAY JOB (add du du duuuuuu if you wish).

Over the past 5 and a half years I have been a teacher and at first I loved it! I have always enjoyed helping people and get a real kick out of supporting any being to improve their lives, it sounds corny but it’s true. Seriously I’m that person that would invite every homeless person to her house for tea, cake and a hot bath if I could. That’s what I thought I was signing up for but boy oh boy, I was so far out of the ball park on that one. Don’t get me wrong, I am more than certain that I have improved many little peoples lives. Even if it is just by teaching them a wide range of songs and dances. Everyone has the right to know Saturday Night and the Macarena right?

You see, every teacher will tell you the 9am – 3:30pm is a gift, they love it, it makes them happy, they love children and this is when they get to be around them. It is the other 10 -12 hours of their working day that leaves them drained, stressed and filled with anxiety. Teachers work a crazy amount of hours, marking books, assessments, doing displays, attending meetings, the list is endless. It wasn’t that long ago that my husband and myself were up at 4am making a 3d train for my display…… he’s a keeper, and like me, must be a little bit crazy to do this, am I right? This endless list has lead to many teachers burning out and in need of a permanent holiday. Myself being one of them. I’ve spent the past few years wondering why I couldn’t keep up to the workload, why I never felt good enough and why, when it came to the holidays, I was a crazy amount of exhausted. Yes as you can see I felt  pathetically sorry for myself and really it’s a wonder that I have any friends left. High five guys, you’re the best!!

Processed with VSCOcam with f2 presetUntil recently, when I had a lightbulb moment, it’s not me, its them. I am bloomin’ good enough, I worked my bottom off day and night, the children in my class made outstanding progress and do you know what I was graded as outstanding too. Go me……. (does victory dance around the kitchen!) The fact of the matter is, the job is three peoples job and the workload is unmanageable. If you’re a tad on the Monica side like myself, you won’t be able to come to terms with the fact that you will never be on top of things. I like to go to sleep at night you see.

So what eventually made me decided enough is enough? Well just over a year ago I was diagnosed with type one diabetes, out of nowhere, nobody in my family has it and it is so rare to get it after the teen years. There is no evidence to support my thoughts, medical professional I am not, but I am convinced it was stress related. My body had had enough, it had packed it’s bag and was going on a well deserved break, probably to a retreat on a desert island somewhere. This was my major wake up call!

In October, I wrote that formal / scary letter and decided to hand my notice in. I was finally going to do something that made me happy and where I can be me. This was basically a job where I could wear my type of clothes and have purple hair if I wished! I have always loved to write and I live for fashion (honestly, ask anyone, I think I have a problem). I have been verbally blogging to the nation for many years. I am often asked where my clothes are from. I just can’t help myself to tell them all the details, whether they want them or not. So it seems logical right, that I spread the love on a larger platform? Voila…… Fashion blogging!Processed with VSCOcam with f2 presetProcessed with VSCOcam with f2 presetAll being said, I don’t regret anything. Everything happens for a reason and if I hadn’t become a teacher I wouldn’t have met two of my closest friends. If I hadn’t met those friends, I would’t get to visit them in Leeds and Milan…… I could go on Charlotte (SATC) style but I won’t.

In all seriousness it has made me so strong and so determined to do what I want to do. It has been a long old journey getting to this point and being me again. I now get to be happy, do a job that I love and spend more time with my friends and family (lucky them hey?!)

I’m just off to sing very loudly to Destiny’s Child I’m a Survivor now, but before I leave you here is a message from me to you, be brave, do something that you love, make sure you are happy, as life is far too short! Oh and if you meet a teacher, be very nice to them as they are truly incredible beings.

Well there it is, my heart on a piece of virtual piece of paper.

I’d love to hear from you, have you been through something similar?

Big love,

Siobhan

 

 

23 thoughts on “The real me

  1. Natalie Shannon

    I love this, from the heart and truly the reality of what is sadly faced by many many teachers, hence the reason I don’t teach despite being qualified to and working in a college. Education has so many of us running for the hills and yet the government, who must be able to see why, does nothing about it!!! Infuriating. However, Siobhan, I think that the blog is amazing and a career that is perfectly suited to you… always the best dressed!! All the best with the blog and I’m wishing you health and happiness for 2016 and beyond xxxx

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    1. justauniform

      Thank you so much for your really lovely comment! That is what I was hoping would come across….. heartfelt without being too poor me. Yes the reality faced by those in education really is rather sad, so many amazing people that they may loose.

      It’s work in progress, however that is all part of the journey, it will grow as my blogging career does too.

      I hope you have the most amazing travels, great decision to see the world!

      xxx

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  2. bichlis

    Inspiring, honest, amazing photos – go you Shiv! 😘 😘😘 I’m very proud of you that you’re going for your dreams and feel lucky to have met you and become your friend on your journey 😀

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    1. justauniform

      Thanks Lisa, far too kind! I feel lucky to have met you too, as you know you’re among the friends that have had to bare me during the not so great times. As I said no regrets, would have been tragic if we hadn’t have met each other hey?

      Here’s to many coffee dates xxxx

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  3. Amy xx

    I hear and resonate with so many of these words and feelings.
    Parts are like a mirror.

    Huge respect for putting yourself and your health 1st.
    One of the hardest decisions I’ve ever made – but you’ll never look back.
    Welcome to new beginnings and the joy of living what you truly love.
    Suddenly a world that was hazy grey – becomes vivid colours you so love!

    I think this ‘real Siobhan’ suits you…. and I’d like to know her too x

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    1. justauniform

      These are truly lovely words. I am so glad that you can connect with this Amy, as I know you’ve been super brave too and now look at you…… girl boss, right there!

      High five, scuba dive to new beginnings and being happy!

      Keep in touch sweetie xxx

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  4. Clare

    What a great post! I can identify with this. I too am (was) a primary school teacher. I have done the job for 10 years and I always had a huge workload but now with 2 children aswell it’s totally umanageable. So I also handed my notice in in October. Here’s to our new lives in 2016! Good luck

    Clare x

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    1. justauniform

      Thank you Clare! I was hoping people could relate and for it to be positive for everybody. Well done in doing what is right for you and your family! What have you got planned for 2016? It’s going to be a great year ☺️😊

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  5. Jules

    What a great post! We may not have been there a few years ago when the situation was at its worst but Lisa and I witnessed the struggles and worry you went through in 2015. Although it’s sad that you had to give up teaching (because you did a fantastic job and the kids loved you) I’m so happy you’re doing what’s best for you and your health. Life is definitely too short to be dreading to go to work every day for whatever reason that may be. Do what you love, love what you do. Well done for getting through a very tough year, stay positive and everything will just keep getting better and better. You deserve it, darling! Lots of love, Shiv xx Jules

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  6. kelly

    You hit the nail on the head there Siobhan, life really is too short. Go you managing 5 years!! I managed 3. You really suit your new career hope it takes off for you in 2016.

    All the best 😊
    Kelly

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  7. Charlene

    I’m so proud of you. You a a wonderful person and feel so blessed to have you as a friend. Love you loads xxx👭💜👯❤️xxx

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  9. Lee Walker

    Proud of what you have achieved lady. I know absolutely NOTHING about blogging, or fashion for that matter. However I do know you are an amazing Brand Ambassador, one of the best! Can you believe its almost a year since our phone call ??? …….. “Siobhan I have a job for you as a brand ambassador, the catch is you have to dress up as a park ranger” Funny how circumstances arrive 😉 Im a firm believer in everything happening for a reason! Well done vorn 😉

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    1. justauniform

      Thank you so much Lee. So lovely of you to pop by and say these lovely words. Can you believe that was a year ago? Time flies when you’re having fun hey? Yes it really does, what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger and all that!! Here’s to another year!

      Big Love,

      Siobhan

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